Enough of Lonely Smartness, Let's Experience Love

When the word Love comes to your mind, you think of different-2 things depending upon your physical and mental age. For some, it is a feelings of happiness and excitement; and for some it is a feeling of pain and despair. Rest have a feeling of loneliness, but for very few it means nothing and I would like to put myself  into this category.

Recently things  started changing. I would not say that I suddenly fell in love with someone, but decided that I would get out of this monotonous life and will try to look things in a new prospective. It is not that I have no idea what love is, my first exposure of love is from Cinema and Songs. For me cinema is love and thorough this love I got most of the idea.

"Beauty of it", "Ugliness of it", "how to fall in love", "how not to fall in love" etc.

From some (movies), I got to know how love is eternal, but some told me how it is not eternal and like other things it too fades away, it is a feeling after all and then comes my personal experience. I never loved before but I had seen people falling in love and then their experience told me how it is the most stupid thing ever because humans are stupid creatures, their love can not be exception.

I have seen them how they seemed inseparable and then their separation confused me. Does love really exist? Like other things in their life, love too is fragile. So, I decided not to fall in love. Then I started rejecting everyone who came with that perspective. Friends who fell in love again and again, I laughed at them, gave them so called practical advice, how it is futile, why waste time, ultimately you are going to have sex, and all you want is sex so why waste time on stupid love, and they told me how wrong I am.


When I decided to be open to Love; all  the things I laughed at; came back to me. First comes attraction. Merely a glimpse of her gives so such pleasure that hardships fade away and it blurs everything around. It makes you want to hold that moment forever.

Now, I realize how people cross seven seas just to have a glimpse of person they are in love with, and when This feeling of love came to me , believe me; it was very strange. All emotions combined can not explain this feeling. It is like you are eating a dish and strange explosion of taste happens in your mouth and you like it. It is like you become a person who is combined of two person, you and your love.  You start breathing air she breaths, eat what she eats. Love makes you like every stupid thing your love does. Now I understand stupidity of love.

And I firmly say that It is better to be stupid in love rather than be smart and alone. But as  I said before, "passion for love" also ends like other things and then starts the real test.

Simple Answer

It all started when i was a little kid and i was getting my first set of morals from the world,we all in our childhood got these morals from  parents and our teachers.  Lets start with "Truth", always speak truth no matter what , so i took it seriously. Unlike my brothers i was unable to lie , my mother knew this, so if i m trying to hide anything she will call my bluff .punishment or no punishment , it was up to her, classmates never talk in front of me, because they knew that I will tell the truth.  Some uncle or aunt asked me 'do you like us' ,if i did't , I simply tell them that I do not, and then comes the agony of may parents. I used to believe people instantly because I did not understood the need of speaking a lie. I used to get hurt when somebody speak untruth in front of me. "Speak truth" is very simple statement , how hard it could be , later part of childhood i understood that simple is the most complicated thing.yet i am sticking with this simple statement as much as possible.

Second moral was to be humble never be arrogant, always answer people with respect so that they do not get hurt, I took this seriously too ,so when in the class most of the teachers chose  kid who is most vocal and in lot of case arrogant for some task even though may be I am good at it and I used to wonder????

Third moral is Empathy. It is a very interesting moral  which everybody seek, but when it comes to showing empathy for others, people tend to show their wrong side. again i took this moral seriously
i was a average student when it comes to performance in exams, kids wanted to be friends with so called bright kids in the class. I did exactly the opposite because everybody behaved badly with weak kids , I used to sit with them ,and talk nicely , if they had not done their home work , I used to give them my copies. again very simple statement yet complications.

Forth and last important moral was to love everyone cause god resides in every human being. here too  I did exactly that, it was the most surprising thing for me that I could not understand because here we worship Krishna, God of love, yet love is sin in most part of this country. leave alone love between a boy and a girl , people do not even tell their kids that we love you. and I am sticking with love because hate is a burden i can not handle.

They say seek simple answer , I did exactly that by following what they teach me, now they say I am way too complicated for them to understand. I seek simple answer , sometimes I feel stupid in between people, but am I ????

Kashmir conflict "are we watching closely"

these days i am reading about conflicts , conflict of this century , specifically india centric , but when you are reading about something , your mind wanders and other conflict happening today or happened in the past around the world too add to the curiosity . let me write about about india first , currently the biggest conflict is going on between india and pakistan over kashmir. it started right after  india's independence from british and country's partition into two countries india and pakistan, pakistan was made in name of islam , due to some prominent muslim leaders insecurity of them being in minority community in largly hindu population. which created Pandora's box of issues like how muslims in  india be part of a new country pakistan , at that time india was divided into different-2 so called principalities and their so called rulers had the responsibility to decide for the whole population,another problem was the geography , how do we connect each other to these principality, then comes the state craft of these two separate country's leaders how do they manage to merge these different-2 countries and make them india and pakistan. largely it was clear which part is going to be indian or pakistani but there were some regions who were bit dubious about joining any of the countries, prominently state of kashmir was one of them , another major region was state of kalat , now called balochistan where burns of partition are still alive and making these region and its people's life one of the worst in the whole world.

let me start from the partition again , i always believed that partition was the greatest tragedy on the people living in this geographical region imposed by  british and muslim league and its leader jinnah and that too on a false premises that islam is a single entity and religion can be basis of seperate country .which got collapsed when bangladesh got seperated from pakistan as soon as 25 years from their separation. islam has various streams of thoughts and two major ones are shia and sunni sects. current pakistan's situation clearly shows that divide. subcontinent region was always very diverse ethnically, linguistically and traditionally. but there was a cultural connection so special kind of democratic arrangement could only keep the country together. indian leaders were wise enough to understand that. indian constitution makes sure that each and every diversity is respected.

india is developing country and in every aspect of human life it needs development , human rights is one of them, some critics say india being a democratic country has a horrible record of human rights. in some parts of the country specially kashmir vally, there are different stories comes out which shakes your belief in humanity and often critics focus on that part only, and when you talk about these tragic human stories people listen, critics call it exercising freedom of speech , good enough ???? no it can not be. where are the solutions ????

in this world people tend to tell their side of truth, even the biggest names in human rights business do that.

 why not examine every side???

lets get back to partition again , before partition considerable amount of hindu and sikh population were living in that geographical region which is current pakistan for over thousands of year. they did not want a different country for themselves , they did not want to leave their mother land for the sake of some leaders insecurity and opportunism. but they did , tyranny of human evils where identity is a root cause of  greatest of tragedies.

unfinsihed business of partition" kashmir" raises the same question again, is it other than a identiy issue where people in kashmir keep supporting the idea of separatism or is it more than that???

if it is more than that , then what is it ?? what about kashmiri pandit , do they want a separate state ??people often say we have lost faith in indian state , who is this indian state ?? is it a single entity. how separate country solve every bodies problem , Utopian state is just a dream.

humans has a tendency to blame others , be it a illiterate person or highly educated critic of government , who often takes solace in blaming government..

unless or until we solve these stupid issues of identity and strive towards reason and knowledge, we will continue to have these tragedies , and some stupid scholar would be earning fame and money by writing some heart wrenching stories of human tragedies and struggle.